I woke up in New York City, from my sleep behind the wheel....

i can hear the sound, of your voice still ringing in my ear.....

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 14:28:32 GMT

......I'm going underground, but you'll find me anyway I fear

new keyboard inbound!!

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 03:53:49 GMT

So, I ordered a new keyboard from musicians friend.

because my 49 key keyboard from 10 years ago just ain't cuttin it anymore.

new keyboard has 76 (still not a full 88 but i can work with it lol had to consider price)

i really want an actual piano though. that would be awesome.

a new beginning (musically)

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 22:42:38 GMT

So...I love music. This is a very well known fact. I especially love playing and writing music. But, for as much as I love writing music, I've written a handful of songs. I can sit and play for hours, just coming up with stuff. But for whatever reason, very rarely do I ever write and finish a song. That's all about to change.

I looked at the most recent songs I've written, and I realized I have so much more to say. The past 4 years of my life would make a great story. I listened to my favorite album of all time today,Everything in Transit by Jack's Mannequin, and that whole album is pretty much written for one person. I could do that. Or I could just as easily write an entire albums worth of songs about family. or friends. or work. or all of the above.

Since i've made this decision, to actually sit down and create for the purpose of getting all of this out, its been gradually building steam. I feel like the floodgates are about to open and something crazy is going to happen.

which is why i'm going to document the entire process from now on.Writing to recording. (yes, recording, because otherwise what is the point?)

this should be an interesting ride.

how many times can i break til i shatter, over the line can't define what i'm after

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 03:43:21 GMT

i always turn the car around.

music gets me by.

VEGAS BABY!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 10:18:54 GMT

So yeah next summer I am going back to Las Vegas. For a week. Gonna stay at the Bellagio hopefully with a lakeview room. Trip is in the planning/budgeting stages now. It's going to be a good one. I dare say it may even be Legen....wait for it....dary!!!

so give up, our bodies started kissing in a language we didn't know.............

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 09:59:53 GMT

................give in, i'm running through your veins like a habit you can't kick.

Konstantine...................

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 15:55:34 GMT

I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but I'm slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It's always you
In my big dreams
And you tell me that its over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless
and im naked
you gotta get out
you cant stand to see me shakin
no
could u let me go?
i didnt think so
and youi dont wanna be here in the future
so you say the presants just a pleasant interuption to the past
and you dont wanna look much closer
cause ur afriad to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had
crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that your alone oh
and im sleeping in your living room
but we dont have much room to live

and i had these dreams in them i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that I could take you there
but damnit you're so young
well i dont think i care
and if i hurt you
then im sorry
please dont think that this was easy

and then you bring me home
cause we both know what its like to be alone oh
and im dreaming in your living room
but we dont have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesnt she look good
standing in her underware
and i was thinking
what i was thinkin
we've been drinkin and it doesnt get me anywhere
my konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do was touch her long blond hair
and ive been thinkin
but it hurts me thinking
that these nights when we were drinking
no they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell confusion with a 'K'
and i can like it
its to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
its to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
im not your star
isnt that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lie with my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
all the hell i put you through
i always catch the clock
its 11:11
now you wanna talk
its not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine
my konstantine
they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no,no,no, no, no, no, no, no

this is to a girl
who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
ya know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl
who got into my head
with all these fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby you could keep me up in bed
my konstanine

you spin around me like a dream
we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did u know i missed you(x7)
i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we go to sleep
but this time not alone
and i know
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
i know you miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think
maybe that i miss you in my living room
but we dont have much room
i said does anybody need that room
because we all need a little more room
to live

my konstantine...

why why why why why why why a, i up so early??

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 09:17:11 GMT

oh yeah, cuz i am going to see andrew mcmahon in the city tonight!!!!!!!!

he wrote this song for his sister for helping him through his battle for leukemia:

katie

Katie you're a brave girl, and I know its only just started.
I'm gonna be there at 6, with some flowers on sticks
That were clipped just to make the weak strong.
And Katie, its a strange world when girls can get so broken hearted
If it were me and the universe, I'd get the worst of this gone.

Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in your condition
The sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there.
Oh and Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly, but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and we're really not there
We're really not there.

Katie you're a brave girl and courage is something I'll need now.
'Cause its been a hell of a day I've spent fading away
We all fade sometimes, I believe
And Katie its a strange world as I watch the tables get turned around
And you've got the strength that I've lost in a thought that would carry me.

And Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in your condition
The sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there.
Oh and Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly, but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and i'm really not there

Whoa
Whoa

And it's not the end of the world,
It's not the end of the world,
It's not the end of the world,
'Cause the cops wouldn't break up this party.

And Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in your condition
The sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there.
Oh and Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly, but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and we're really not there.

Oh Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in my condition
Your sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there
Oh Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and we're really not there
We're really not there,
We're really not there.

Katie, you're a brave girl,
And I know its only just started.

to the sleepless this is my reply.....

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 14:15:40 GMT

.....i will write you a lullaby

ABSOLUTLY SURREAL

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 04:45:39 GMT

We just had band practice tonight.

Me,Daryl,Joey,Steve and Kenny.

It was the first time the 5 of us had played together in 2 years, 4 months, and 27 days.

yes. i kept track.

it.was.AMAZING.

we sounded great. i couldn't believe it. after 10 minutes it was like we never stopped.

Above the Shadows-- Fallen (new name soon)

Wanting to find you
and wanting you here
above this madness
will I find you there

Above the Shadows
I, I will be there
and when you find me
I, I will be yours

My heart just breaks
into pieces I swear
there's nothing left for you
leave, I won't care

Above the Shadows
I, I will be there
and when you find me
I, I will be yours

Womens MMA

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 16:02:46 GMT

Because women can kick some ass too.

Gina Carano vs Cristiane Santos AUG 15th.

we ran like vampires from a thousand burning suns, and even then we shouldve stayed

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 01:11:28 GMT

Very very bored at work. Seriously.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...............

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 12:22:09 GMT

.................TO MEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

:)

sorry, i'm excited.

http://twitter.com/ImmortalsFall

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 04:15:00 GMT

idk why

apparently, it is ok to be racist...........

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 01:36:55 GMT

...as long as you are an 87 year old preacher and you do it during one of the most inappropriate times (not that there ever is an appropriate time) in american history.

The following is an excerpt from the inaugural benediction given by Rev. Joseph Lowery

"Lord, in the memory of all the saints who from their labors rest, and in the joy of a new beginning, we ask you to help us work for that day when black will not be asked to get in back, when brown can stick around ... when yellow will be mellow ... when the red man can get ahead, man; and when white will embrace what is right. That all those who do justice and love mercy say Amen."

(link to the full text can be found below)

Really?

The implication is that all of the other races are being held down, and the white race is the one that hasn't made the right choices.

Lumping every white person into a group, a group that has yet to do what is right??

I don't know, but that sounds kind of racist to me.

This was a prayer at a historical moment of american history (the historical significance being the inauguration of the 44th President of The United States) and should not have ended this way. He shouldn't have been talking about race at all.

full transcript: http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5h4SrWpZNd-yocKSO7_9FO51iLJowD95R4RTG0

so bored.

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 07:23:31 GMT

it's 222 am.

I am bored.

and i can't sleep.

i tried. it just didn't work.

now i sit and i type nonesense, because what else is there to do at 222 am?

Jack, Coke, and Your Mom

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 13:08:20 GMT

So yeah, music.

Lately Joey, Kenny and I have been talking about writing and recording some new material.

It will probably be for a new project, not for Fallen, since the prospect of Fallen getting back tgogether hinges on Steve, and that's not happening.

But we've been talking about it alot the past few days. And today hopefully I'll be getting the recording software for my computer.

updates will follow.

Happy 2009!!

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 17:47:01 GMT

Happy New Year to everyone. Hope it is a happy and healthy one for you all.

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 08:57:17 GMT

Frank Mir beat Antonio Noguiera for the UFC Interim Heavyweight title saturday night, it whjat was supposed to be the toughest challenge of his career.

Frank Mir, who 4 years ago was in a horrific motorcycle accident, and was told he would never fight again.

He worked through some serious adversity, some very lackluster fights, and alot of personal demons. Then, last year, a better Frank Mir showed up and beat Antoni Hardonk, then in February of this year, he beat Brock Lesnar in what was for some reason thought to be a huge upset.

And saturday night, he showed up in the best shape of his career (even before the accident) and beat Noguiera, relying mainly on his standup, which was thought to be his weakest point.

Now sometime early next year, he gets to fight Brock Lesnar again, who since his loss to Frank Mir, went on to beat Heath Herring, and then a returning Randy Couture for the UFC Heavyweight Championship. The winner of tis fight will be the undisputed UFC heavyweight title. My money is on Frank Mir (quite literally, if I can find a place to bet lol)

My point being, I am a lazy fuck. I've used the metal plate and 18 screws in my leg as an excuse not to be as active as I used to be. Never really outwardly putting it forth as an excuse, but in my head, it was always there. That little bitch of a thought that told me it was ok to be a lazy fuck, because I probably couldn't handle the kind of active lifestyle I was used to living anyway. That little bitch of a thought that told me doing just enough to get by was ok. That little bitch of a thought that somehow rationalzed being close to 80 pounds overweight.

Well fuck that.

Seriously.

watch for some changes.

ITS CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 11:37:58 GMT

I'd just like to wish you all a Merry Christmas. I hope its time well spent with loved ones and a great day for all.

(an excerpt from the best christmas special ever)

"Isn't there anyone who can tell me what Christmas is all about?"

"Sure Charlie Brown, I can tell you what christmas is all about. Lights please."

"And there were in the same country shepherds, abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them! And they were sore afraid ... And the angel said unto them, "Fear not! For, behold, I bring you tidings o great joy, which shall be to all my people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ, the Lord."

"And this shall be a sign unto you: Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger." And suddenly, there was with the angel a multitude of the Heavenly Host praising God, and saying, "Glory to God in the Highest, and on Earth peace, and good will toward men."

"And that's what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown."

my yearly christmas eve entry :-)

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 15:35:56 GMT

'Twas the night before Christmas', when all through the house,
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse;
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that ST. NICHOLAS soon would be there;
The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of sugar-plums danced in their heads;
And mamma in her 'kerchief, and I in my cap,
Had just settled down for a long winter's nap,

When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.

The moon on the creast of the new-fallen snow
Gave the luster of mid-day to objects below,
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a miniature sleigh, and eight tiny reindeer,

With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick.
More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,
And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name:

"Now, DASHER! now, DANCER! now, PRANCER and VIXEN!
On, COMET! on CUPID! on, DONDER and BLITZEN!
To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!
Now dash away! dash away! dash away all!"

"As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky,
So up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
With the sleigh full of toys, and St. Nicholas too.

And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my hand, and was turning around,
Down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound.

He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot;
A bundle of toys he had flung on his back,
and he looked like a peddler just opening his pack.

His eyes -- how they twinkled! his dimples how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow;

The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath;
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
That shook, when he laughed like a bowl full of jelly.

He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
And I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself;
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread;

He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
And filled all the stockings; then turned with a jerk,
Laying his finger aside of his nose,
And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose;

He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim, as he drove out of sight,
"HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL, AND TO ALL A GOOD-NIGHT."

christmas eve high five......hell yeah.

***and yes, it says DONDER, not Donner. Donder is the correct name, it metamorphed into Donner over the years. I guess they're interchangeable at this point, since Donner is the one in common usage, however wrong it may be. just a quick fun fact for ya.***

Time to move on.

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 05:12:06 GMT

From LJ that is.

I mean, I'll still drop by, read peoples posts, and comment accordingly. but for my blogging purposes, I am going to go elsewhere. Maybe an update or two here and there, but for the most part, nope. Maybe I'll cross post. Maybe.

new blog adress coming soon.

FILL THIS OUT PLEASE

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 21:32:40 GMT

BASICS
1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. any pets?

RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. a picture of yourself! (optional, of course)
4. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.

UFC Night

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 20:48:32 GMT

was awesome. as usual. drank a little too much maybe, but that happens to everyone once in awhile.

Georges St Pierre beat Matt Serra to become the undisputed welterweight champion.

Wrestlemania XXIV!!!!!!!!

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:17:08 GMT

Wrestlemania is on tonight....right now actually lol!!!!

I've always been a fan, since I was little...but, over the past few yrs my interest in pro wrestling has greatly decreased, due to a number of factors, not the least of which being my newfound interest in the real competition found in the UFC. I'd watch only highlights of wrestling shows, fastfowarding thru most of them, and rarely ever ordered a PPV.

Lately though, I'm fully back into the swing of things.....and I'm loving it lol...I love being this excited for Wrestlemania.

I'm gonna go eat some wings, drink some beer, and watch some wrestling. PEACE!